I could get the meaning from what her said. Though it was said in the way of joking, I can see the truth that she was depressed by the fact I was a new in X. And, of course, I may easily get the further suggestion that she was proud with herself that she had really experienced.
GOD! I can't tell the real feeling of what I thought. Do I really love her? Are all the activities since last October true? If I don't, so what does it mean? Everything in these days, so amazing, out of my expectation, out of my control...
But, the fact is she said she liked/loved me directly, without a second-hesitation.
And she does not care the statement of my body at all.
She moved me. It is true. I can make sure. I swear.
......
But there's sth uneasy in my mind. Do we get on so fast that I am not ready for ?
I hope she loves me as what I do.
I turn off the cell phone to let my heart be quiet for a while. I don't know if she would send me a SM(the rate should be above 50 percent I think)
What do you think, ran? I want to know you more and more. On the same hand, I wish you can know me,too and give me more confidence.
I hope
I love u, ran !
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